It was yet another fuming day in my life, as the devil claim all credits for this...
Everything could have been solved quite simply but she just wants it so sophisticatedly..

I shall not complain about wat had happened as i look to forgetting this fuming episode of my life...

I can only say that I might juz have enuf of all this faeces and my "metex" is out searching for better endeavours... I am somewat fine with the job but its the human factor that makes this path very difficult to move that few steps...

Now, I just need some kind souls out there to gimme some guide and advice..i lack them now..(The best is some job betta than this one ... phew..that would be BEST!!!)

I might juz have decided..I would be crossing to another path instead..its juz when and how..






Well..i juz knew it right...Tats why Sunday nights i know disaster is juz a sleep away..

Everything was alright till tat devil started the ball rolling ... all the blah blah abt no.4 planning..i had given the f-king plan ages ago..now tat things are delayed and there comes the remarks " Xiaodi..u know how long this thing has been delayed..u know how many pple chasing for it.." , " I need to see some urgency u know.."
Wakaozzz...this 2 remarks i think might be the turning point of it all man...after tis remark..i was sitting there stoneing for 5mins..thinking..thinking...stupid sia..although i raise voice alittle - hope she feel it - i still have to leave some space to get down the stage... well..i dunno still staying for how long..but if i were to go .. the devil creature will be one of the main factor..

Cannot stand it much longer...i was thinking if i am going to stay ard for few more yrs and kana spread butter by a devil ... and cannot do much ..

With this..i think it has almost pushed me to the other option i have as of now..I think i will work towards that route now.. EPT is my next aim after bike.. it shall be my target for the next 6months..

Not looking forward to tmr - well.. wat to do..

I am ok with most of the collegues..only for a few devils ard..today is one..tmr?? ... I dun think i can stay long here anymore..the job could have been okay..its juz those external factors out there..i am forced..i wanted to try..and try i did..this job is turning negative and its purely walking on the straight road ...waiting for some vehicle to pick me up and move elsewhere...






Frankly speaking..i really detest Sundays..knowing Monday is just coming up next is just like knowing disaster is coming soon..I dunno why but nw..right nw is the worst as i know disaster is going to happen just a sleep away...sighzzz

Football @ AMK - Yeah! Time again for some sporting activity, need some just to stay alive..dying of boliao-ness... Somewat happy as I went last wk and this wk..hopefully i can keep it a constant attendance and enjoy wat i think is the only thingy i can look foward to on a Sunday..
Well..today's session was quite cool as JiaRen came too..recap ---> he was once my best frend in sec sch days but due to some misunderstanding/stupid events...juz forget it..we r ok now..were not on talking terms for quite a while..till recent yrs..haha.. I like playing wif him in the team as i think i can have a good "eye contact" wif him and he can pick me in a gd position and feed the ball..haha..and tats real cool...cos i can have chance to score ma...heee...well todays tally was 2 goals ..better then last wk though..1goal nia..haha..
unfortunately..the rain caused the session to end rather early...too bad...
we shall see if there's another one next wk..

Cancer Charity Show - Night was spent watching this show..i kindof like to watch such shows as seeing those real-life cases of unfortunate pple makes one reflect on wat u have now..Some pple out there is so desperate just to do simple things like get out of bed.drink water..have food to eat ..etc... Well..i could have been like one of them's family members if nt for his sacrifice...
Makes me think of why some pple are so fortunate and some are not.. The "5 fingers" story by one of my bunkmates came to mind...Humans are born with 5 diff length of fingers .. each having its own responsibilites ... u can nv have best of everything... thus life is unfair sometimes..u gotta live wif it..no matter how u see it..

Well..at least this wk has got some show to watch siam the sian-ness i have for Sunday nights..next wk siao liao lo..infact i think all Sunday nights lo...

Come to think of it..i really think i muz do something abt my future..i cannot go on like this..i muz have some job tat i can look forward to doing on Monday ... its juz not working right..maybe beocs the lock is unlocking soon..maybe becos i have another option now.. however..diff route, many considerations..stay or change..its tough..i am thinking for too long maybe..this process is beri xinku...muz get a decision soon...








A eventful "uptown" day as my whole day was spent in town ... (maybe eva since dinosaurs were still ard..)

Teaching Seminar @ Orchard Hotel
Attended the seminar to know more about what i had orginally wanted to be - Chinese Teacher. As usual, there was'nt much emphasis on the MT teaching programmes - guess i gotta find out more myself. But good thing to know that much of the benefits were relatively attractive, salary and stuff.

Could see that MOE was quite keen on attracting pple to do mid-career switching, and put themself into teaching after experience in other industries..
Thinking about the teaching option should i really give up on what i have now... back to my 1st love..haha..perhaps still need some time to think think about it. But I believe i might just go for the Profficiency Test, to know where my standard is now - after so many yrs of not using much of Chinese writing eva since sec sch days...

Afterwhich, went over to PS to catch up wif this nu'er HY, makan Ajisen then watched "Lars & the Real Girl" - haha..combi of Mr Bean and House Of Wax! Chatted and updated about happenings the past 2wks.
Next came the highlight - "drink class". My 1st experience of sitting in a bar (wateva u call it,acutally we sat outside!) with a frend and actually drinking cocktail with alcholic content. Sounds beri useless of me for a 23yr old man to say that but well..i am not born to drink so, I am learning abit here and there so gimme a chance pls...Had "Black Russian" and yep it tasted nt too bad..Chatted and yeah..maybe interested in that thingy call After8..with mint? ..we shall wait and see ba..haha.. It was certainly quite nice with a frend..haha or nu'er drinking..and in turn i look to her as teacher lo..tats why i rather get her for my 1st time then some ah bengs out there (oops) and psycho me to drink like a thirsty freak.. yep..i trusted this 1&only nu'er betta than guys lo..haha..missed the telepathy talking wif her using the lame frequency tat has been put into the freezer eva since she left the company..sighzz..and re-using it yest was quite happy.. Can MSN la..but scare gajiao her in her stuffs..so diam diam lo..well..
Now that some1 has opened the door for me into the alcholic arena, just maybe i might start to indulge in such activity too..atmosphere was nice..watch football abit ..talk and chit chat..

Come to think of it..many of the things that happen in my life was influenced by various pple to me..else i might just be another country pumpkin ..All thanks to them for bringing such things into my life...

KTV - Eric Wong/Kilo and guys
Pool - Gilbert/ChowHua (but i still dun favour pool much..hee)
Football - Mr Rahman(selected me to play inter-class..)/Shunping and Pri sch mates
Table Tennis - Mrs Goh Choo San(Pri sch teacher - encouraged me to join ECA after the Choir disaster..)
Baseketball - Sec 2 frends - cos no football field in YT so join them play bball, but now almost nil..cos of my disc prob..kia xi ma...
Badminton - My uncle - haha..the interest was built up since young..playing with uncle and later i am pitting against other pple in sch and now leisurely plays with collegues every month..
Movies - 1st movie on my own, A Jackie Chan movie ...forget wat name..but since then movie-ing is a beri norm thing already..
Running - Perhaps being drilled while BMT not to give up during the run, i.e. walk to the end..slowly i am cultivated that nv-give-up spirit and really i kindof like running when boliao..haha..i love that last 50m dashing past people, if any, during IPPT..haha..
Swimming - haha..maybe there maybe more swimming coming up. Doc says swimming gd for the back and slipped disc..well...haha..i have a swimming pool downstairs..the last time i went in was....5months ago? haha..forget..

Good frends are hard to come by - and i think i might have lost some.. whilst drinking and thinking of whom i can call upon next to chitchat and talk rot was a headache.. thinking why i had to be so boliao for some parts of the last 2wks..now i see it more clearly..haha..If any1 seeing this thinks its a hint for u guys/gals to "pity" on me..well..YES..haha..u r free to jio me out de..i can manage my time well enuf...haha..






After a 2yr hiatus, i am back to do something here. Not sure how long it can last but the mindset now sure is much diff from 2yrs back. Just having this itch back after nua-ing for the past 2wks and peeping at other pples blog and here i am - REOPENING of lauchinhock.blogspot.com!

Not sure wats my objective here but i surely am forgetting many details in my life...will this blogging thing help me to recap and remember? - let me try try see ba...

To link up with the last post, I am now out of the army already and now in STLogistics/ALB as Purchaser/Planner. I am sure more will come about my work in the days to come...

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Recap for the past day ...weLL...
Working as usual but the talk with during lunch with XH was somewat inspiring for me. I could see tat she is real happy with wats coming up for her... and with that i decided to put my foot one more step ahead of my teaching wish..i have registered for the seminar and shall see wats in stall. Actually went b4 for this seminar during the sec sch days (haha..stupid right) but now go again see whether has got anything betta to offer - now that i am a diploma grad standard...heee

Next up...the endurance in me was well-tested again as i sat in BBDC from 7pm-930pm ..cos my 1st ROAD lesson is at 955pm! Well, i got no other place to go anyway... so its read newspaper..see car/bikes/pple... (feel macham like ah pek..nv stare at chiobu nia..)
Frankly speaking, ROAD riding is damn fun, exciting, thrilling, unbelievable, amazing, marvellous, superb, shiok ... (can u feel my shiok-ness...haha) ... but i still failed..haha.. blindspots and braking distance problems...sighzzz - try again lo...next week...

alright..tat should be all for the day and we shall see how long i can sustain to commit to maintaining a blog..haha..i dunno..


well...4yrs ago this moment i lost HIM - whereva u are now, pls take care of urself..I hope u see how we are now..i will continue to try my best for them..